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Dying *chokes hands against throat*

Journal Entry: Tue May 6, 2008, 8:14 PM
  • Mood: Shocked
  • Listening to: my (slightly less)painful breathing
  • Eating: (inhaling) more meds
  • Drinking: meds
Okays, so you guys (some of you) know were I was this weekend (at two sexy emo boys' house) but this is what happened. So on saterday, I showed up, max ,the friendly one whos 15 and nice, and the one who invited me, went and lottered at some stores and he bought me a few bathing suits and outfits. His brother pretty much ignored me...their parents sorta minded but max and his parents had a fight, and he's like "if you won't let my freind sleep here, than you'd better kick me out too!" anywho, this settled the problem so that I could stay there. The next day, sunday, was really cool, we tried to shoot off some fireworks at jones point but we got busted after only half of our fireworks were gone, and ran. Finally, we were surfing the web for hair styles, cause I wanted a cut, and he's was like an inch away from my face and said " I don't see why you need a haircut, you look perfect just the way you are" he got really close to my face, and that's the last thing that I remember.... the next thing I knew, I was in an ambulance and he was there freaking out saying something about how he shouldn't have done that... when I was finally coherrant, he told me that I passed out, and when I didn't wake up and was barely breathing, he called the ambulance. He was talking about how he was really sorry, and how he'd make it up to me. He looked so sad and innocent.... anyways, when I finally got to the hospital, I got a breathing treatment drug cocktail for 5 hours, and was released when I was stable.. the rest of the day I slept. Today, Me and him went to go watch a movie and hang out and stuff cause he felt really soory, and sure enough, about ten minutes into the movie (it was iron man) I couldn't breath. BACK on the ambulance, when I got there, again, thankfully dr. emery, who I know on a first name basis (I'm at the hospital alot) treated me. ANOTHER 5 hour drug cocktail plus oxygen.. they took an xray because I was coughing up blood and they thought that my right lunge had collapsed.... I just got home >,< . Iv'e been in the hospital 5 times in the past two weeke, and 18 of the last 34 hours, I've spent in the hospital.I have plurasy, super broncitus, and phemonia in my right lunge.... he was there the entire time ^^heres the meds that they proscribed today:

MEDS

-albuteral inhalation aerosol, solution 90 mcg/act 2 inhalations every 4 hours# 1 6.8 gm inhaler

-atrovent inhalation solution 0.02% 2.5 ml every 4 hours # 30 2.5 ml ampule

-albuteral sulfate inhalation nebulization solution 1.25 mg/3ml 1 solution container every 4 hours # 20 3ml vials

-claritan oral tablet 10 mg 1 tablet daily # 10 tablets

-flovent hfa inhalation aerosol 220 mgc/act 2 puffs twice daily # 112 gm canister

-prednisone 5 tablets daily, decreasing by one tablet every other day until pills run out.

-tessolonn perles one a day 100 mg capsules (benzonatate)

-sceptrum 2 capsules three times a day for 5 days 600 mg each

-keflex 1 tablet 6 times a day 400 mg each

NARCOTICS
tylonal d

Darvolcet

vicoden

percacet

I'm not allowed to ride my bike or opperate machinery for 10 days O.o

Symtoms
heres why I went, or what I'm going to experience for the next couple weeks

confusion/dizzyness/fainting

hallucinations

blurry vision

severe weakness/ slow breathing/ no breathing/ slow heartbeat

severe chest pain when breathing

fever over 100 (my natural temp is 96.2 O.o

facial pain, ear pain and stiff neck

constant coughing and graspping for breath

vomitting blood

severe stomach aces ( I think that this is due to the drug cocktails every four hours)

P.S.
I don't have to go to school until whenever I want too. ^^'

it hurts to breath O.o

I am half knocked out, half jittery/hyper, and half high ;]

I get medically high every four hours :P

I'll probably go back to school on wensday or thursday -_-

Life sux DX

I know all the docters at fairfax hosptital by first name O_O

I don't know how often I'll be on deviantart, awake, or even not knocked out or high 3:

I'm not supposed to join sports now forever (let's see them try to stop me :evillaugh:

The pharmacy and the nurse at the hospital think that I'm a drug addict and a massacist XD

- I am proud to say that even though I have broken lots of stuff, had lots of stitches, and smally localized surgeries and large surgeries, I have never let the docters put me or any of my extremidies to sleep, unless it was nessisary for the procedure to be successful, not just for my own comfort or lack of pain. (partially because I hate being drugged and having a piece of me put to sleep [especially if it envolves needled <.>''])

RANDOM STUFF

- I hate asthma

- I'm totaly insane

-I'm getting a hair cut and dyed somewhere between may 18 and june 20

-I'm gonna get a new violin case in early june

-Im gonna get lots of new art stuff in early june

-my mom just matterialized money out of noware for every month now

- My mom's gonna take me on a $1000 shopping spree on june 26

-I got a new laptop

-My brother and dad are building me either a nice ass corvet(I forgot what model ^.^';) or a porshe 911 turbo [both would be black with blue under light glow] that should be done by the time I get my learner's permit

-my house is getting fixed up

-If my dad wasn't a drunk dill weed most of the time, I did any of my class work, and I wasn't dying right now, my life would be wonderful

-I drew lots of cool pics, a new Id, and some photos but I don't know when (if ever) I'll post them.

-The school's apprentice shrink is using me as a case study and is following me around.

-I'm gonna have a huge fight with the white preppy boys when I go back to school because I want to hurt something

-At the hospital (while I was already there) They snapped my knee cap back into place finally


-I'm going to busch gardens next friday and saterday (I'm the one who has to sleep on the floor at the great wolf lodge)

-I've had a splinter in my toe for a month that I can't find O.o

-I've had illegal photoshop for like a month now ><

-max owes me lunch C:

-max is the shmex><

-I'm thinking of getting som enew peircings

-I'm thinking of taking a nurse course next year (cause I get hurt alot)

-It looke like I tried to kill myself on both my wrist from were I ripped off the hospital bracelets. :C

-I heal really fast so don't worry about me too much ^^'

-my brother won $1400 for this contest thing in atlanta.

-I accidentally got thirty people to watch the emo song on youtube ( I didn't know this till after the fact)

-I acually might have to start wearing glasses because the vision in my right eye sux, but I'm thinking of getting one weird colored contact.

-I've read the twilight series four times now, even though it sends me into spiraling depression

-I am now obsessed with saso dei

-I'm getting dizzy O.o

-This journal is really long and I'm about to pass out D:


EDIT
so today, I was in a drug induced coma till like 6, and I've been feeling really high, but I've been able to breath a resonable amount, and it doesn't hurt as much so I might go to school tomorrow if I'm not feeling really high or tired ^^

SUPER EDIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
The car I'm getting is finalized, and the parts are ordered it's retail value is like 82 grand, but my dad and brother build costum cars. The grand total of my beauty will be around 5,000. Not to shabby eh?

So here it is, the incredibly sexy car, and my love

Chevrolet corvette v06 year 2006
It will either be black or silver, and will have blue underlight glow!
It's gorgeous *ish in love*
So here's the question:
Black or silver?
google image: corvette 06 or something like that.
Please tell me your opinion, even if I don't even know you!

Devious Information

  • Current Age: 14 yay for me b-day (3/20)
  • Current Residence: Alexandria VA
  • deviantWEAR sizing preference: small
  • Interests: anime , avenue Q, poetry,drawing, rent, deviantart
  • Favourite movie: hal's moving castle, V for vendetta, rent, atu
  • Favourite band or musician: disturbed, system of a down, linkin park, beatles, and alice nine
  • Favourite genre of music: death metal, alternative, emo, j-anything
  • Favourite artist: me ^.^
  • Favourite poet or writer: Edgar Alan poe, stephony meyer, ME
  • Favourite style or digital art: clean lined
  • Operating System: pc, hp
  • MP3 player of choice: ipod nano 3(to look at all my pics.)
  • Shell of choice: Umm. turtles are cool
  • Wallpaper of choice: my random rantings
  • Skin of choice: uuu.. tan? no, ...... uuu. not to pasty, but not tan either, isn't this a little bit racist?
  • Favourite game: Devil may cry 4
  • Favourite gaming platform: ps2,computer,ds, wii, ps3, xbox 360
  • Favourite cartoon character: all the akatsuki, yondaime, kiba,
  • Personal Quote: if life is a lemon, then i am lemonade
  • Tools of the Trade: pencil, sharpie, 88% paper

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Devious Comments

~Grapexplosion:iconGrapexplosion: 1 day 3 hours ago
ah thanks ^_^'
for a second I did believe him/her o_o

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Crazy-Marimo:Noes! L dies :[
Grapexplosion: Ima miss him -sniff-
Crazy-Marimo: Yeah, I wanna die in front of a computer screen eating a cupcake X[
Grapexplosion: Then I wanna die in a warehouse talking to an imaginary thing xD
~itachifangirl228:iconitachifangirl228: 1 day 20 hours ago
you really believe this guy? trust me, I've found about a dozen people pretending to be masashi kishimoto, none of them real, if it was really him, he wouldn't tell you who he was because of crazy fanmail.

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~Grapexplosion:iconGrapexplosion: 2 days 2 hours ago
o_o;;
:iconmasashikishimoto:

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Crazy-Marimo:Noes! L dies :[
Grapexplosion: Ima miss him -sniff-
Crazy-Marimo: Yeah, I wanna die in front of a computer screen eating a cupcake X[
Grapexplosion: Then I wanna die in a warehouse talking to an imaginary thing xD
~Negumi:iconNegumi: 3 days 7 hours ago
oh okay then... and thanks for visiting! SasoDei is the smex!

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~itachifangirl228:iconitachifangirl228: 3 days 17 hours ago
I don't think I know you, but I could be wrong, and I visited your da page because the world will end with yoai, deidaraxsasori is the smex, and I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

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life sucks, get used to itIf you have attempted a jutsu by performing hand seals or using scrolls, copy and paste this into your signature.
~KaiCeliera:iconKaiCeliera: 5 days 4 hours ago
Shou is a sexy bitch!!

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"Because you drink all my beer, hide my fun bondage toys, and get my bass out of tune"- Zero
~Negumi:iconNegumi: 6 days 20 hours ago
Where do I know you from? Do I even know you?

Well, on a good note... yes, I do agree that SasorixDeidara is the shit!! It is the best, un. I also love redheads to I guess I'm a bit partial to all the redheads... is it possible for someone to have a fetish for redheads?! ^^;

Anyhow... thanks for visiting my DA thing and commenting on the fact that, yes, the world will end with yaoi! (it just goes to show you that someone up there really does love us!)

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I rather feel pain than nothing at all!

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=Deltabeta:iconDeltabeta: May 7, 2008, 12:17:49 PM
Thank you very much for the fav! :D :heart:

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*maczee:iconmaczee: May 5, 2008, 12:15:17 PM
Thank you so much for the :+fav:!
~batTUrd:iconbatTUrd: May 5, 2008, 5:57:11 AM
Thanks a bunch for the :+fav:

I really appreciate it :)

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=plus-i-minus:iconplus-i-minus: May 5, 2008, 4:09:22 AM
Thank You very much for :+fav: :hug:

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*Inuyashas-hanyougirl:iconInuyashas-hanyougirl: May 4, 2008, 6:28:51 PM
Thanks for the fave ^^

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~AerieTigre:iconAerieTigre: May 3, 2008, 7:00:14 PM
Thanks for the fave, da pyon~

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*DaXXe:iconDaXXe: May 3, 2008, 6:14:09 PM
Thanx a bunsh 4 favin' :thanks: :orange: :music:
:icondaxxeeggplz:

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Be my favourite song! :music:
~Nicirara:iconNicirara: May 3, 2008, 6:54:15 AM
Thanks for the :+fav:~

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Shippuden~ :katana:
SAVE US Y2J!!
=Tollerka:iconTollerka: May 3, 2008, 6:10:16 AM
Thank you so much for :+fav:!

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*Busiris:iconBusiris: May 2, 2008, 8:20:40 PM Mood: Pride
Thanks for the :+fav:s!
:D :D :D

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*Aristedes:iconAristedes: May 2, 2008, 7:03:33 PM Mood: Joy
Thanks for the :+devwatch: :D!

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=PsychoGlitch:iconPsychoGlitch: Apr 29, 2008, 5:53:57 PM
X3 Thanks for the watch and fave. :)
~itachifangirl228:iconitachifangirl228: Apr 25, 2008, 8:30:08 PM
:~donttalkdontthink12:

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~CandleDance:iconCandleDance: Apr 21, 2008, 6:22:37 PM
Thanks for the fave.

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~kitsuneguy:iconkitsuneguy: Apr 20, 2008, 12:59:40 PM
ITS PRETTY FUNNY THAT YOU OPENED THIS
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>because in the next seven days you will:
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>1. Have someone fall in love with you
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>2. Find a $20.00 bill on the ground
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>3. Make-out with the person you like
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>4. Your best friend will get you a really nice gift
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>BUT...
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>first you will have to repost this with of this
>title:
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> IM moving to (a random place).
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>Repost this and see how many people you scare!
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>No Send
>Backs!
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>TAG UR IT!!
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>This is so scary.
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>Send this to 10 people in the next 143 min.
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>When you are done press F6 and your crushes name will
appear
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>on the screen in big letters.
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>This is scary cuz it works!!
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>if you break the chain you will have problems with
relationships
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&g t;for the next 5 yea rs JUST COPY AND PASTE!!!>>
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>NO FORWARDS!!!!!

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~WrathSyndrome:iconWrathSyndrome: Apr 13, 2008, 6:51:28 AM
That's fine with me. :=

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~itachifangirl228:iconitachifangirl228: Apr 12, 2008, 9:37:44 PM
no, but my family has a scary fucked up history with that sort of thing....anyways, someday, you might get the complete answer but not online. and not right now. ok?

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98% of people on deviantart say 98% of bleh blah blech, if you're one of the 98% put this in your signature.
life sucks, get used to itIf you have attempted a jutsu by performing hand seals or using scrolls, copy and paste this into your signature.